“A Conflicted Mind!”

Chelsea’s week thus far had been a mixed bag, she had picked up the win for her team on the Charity Cruise, a match that led to her getting signed to Level Up Wrestling, however that didn’t carry over to her match on Tuesday Night Sin where she lost to Rev1’s World Champion Khaos and found out that her upcoming title match in Rev1 was now a triple threat with the woman she submitted to earn the shot joining the match.

Combine this with conflicting feelings about the nature of her relationship with Sarah Blaze and the young woman might find it difficult to concentrate on her upcoming match for a shot at the Impulse Championship against Tara Ayla, La Andalucera. Acid Beth and William Blake Mason at PWE’s first PPV Annihilation, can she finally get her first win in PWE despite everything working against her or will the losing streak continue?

Chelsea and Sarah’s home, Chicago, Illinois
Thursday the 4th of November 2021, 03:00am

What’s wrong with me?!

I know that’s a loaded question because I’ve been open about my mental health struggles for a while now, especially after the breakup with my ex-boyfriend, but right now that question is directed towards one person in particular, It’s not anyone in either of my upcoming matches either, not Arden and Toni in IWF, not JC and Dizzi in IWF and not the four competitors that I’ll be going to war with on Sunday in PWE.

No, it’s about a very special person in my life.

I’ve known Sarah for a couple of weeks now, but we pretty much hit it off right away, it was either our mutual love of metal, our mutual porn backgrounds or the fact that she was fucking gorgeous, either way? We were acting so much like a lesbian couple that Zoey was practically asking us about the wedding date!

So why can’t I just come out and ask Sarah if she wants to drop any pretences and just start dating for real?!

The lie that I was feeding anyone who asked (fellow bandmates, Zoey, my sisters) was that I didn’t want to jump right back into the dating game after the breakup but it was sometime after we had sex on the cruise’s sun deck that I realized that I was basically kidding myself! That I wanted to admit that I was in love with Sarah but after the breakup, I was worried about getting hurt emotionally again.

I don’t think it needs to be said but this was wreaking havoc on mental health, I put on a brave face on Twitter but I was basically one step away from changing my profile name to “World’s Biggest Fuckup 3: With a Vengeance”, luckily my sisters told me that I should call them if I ever felt that way and after I put my jeans on (up to that point I had been laying on my front in bed wearing nothing but a crop top and panties) I left me and Sarah’s room and called Liz.

Why Liz? As a doctor she works late nights, and I wasn’t about to wake up Chloe or Liz.

“Chelsea, I know we said that you could call us at any time.” Liz sighed as I sat down on toilet with the lid down after calling her via facetime, Sarah was still asleep in the bedroom, and I knew from the cruise that she was a heavy sleeper. “But 3:00am is pushing it! You’re lucky that you caught me in the middle of my break.”

”I know, am I’m sorry.” I responded as I let out a deep breath. ”But this is about Sarah, and frankly I don’t know who else to turn too!”

“Why? Is something wrong?” Liz asked as she started to get concerned, as the oldest of the four she had always been protective of me and Chloe, especially after my suicide attempt. “Chelsea, you know you can talk to me, has she turned abusive?”

”NO! God no, if anything, the problem lies with me!” I exclaimed maybe a bit louder than I intended but if Sarah heard me she must’ve thought that she was dreaming and went back to bed. ”I want to admit that I’m in love with her, but after everything that happened with Ross……..”

“You don’t want to be hurt again?” Liz summarized as she got the idea and I nodded in response. “I can only imagine how this is affecting your mental health.”

”If we’re being honest? I feel like I’m one bad morning away from crashing and burning.” I sighed in response and Liz nodded sympathetically. ”Sarah’s treated me better in the two weeks I’ve been with her than the whole two months that I was with Ross, I want this to work, but I don’t know what to do.”

“Just tell her how you feel!” Liz advised me and I hesitated before she continued. “Look Chelsea, mental health isn’t what I got my PHD in but even I know that keeping things bottled up isn’t healthy! And be honest, how long have you been awake all night for?”

”I tried to go to bed just after midnight, I can’t even keep my eyes open for more than a few minutes at a time.” I admitted, and Liz nodded with a frown on my face. ”Which is bad enough on its own but when you add in the fact that I wrestle for a living?”

“If you didn’t have any big matches coming up, I’d just tell you to stay up all night and talk to Zoey or Krystal, but you have two coming up this week and that Autism Awareness tournament right before your birthday, and that wouldn’t be fair to their wrestling careers either.” Liz nodded as she got the idea. “Find something to keep you occupied, something you know will clear your head and then go back to bed, that should do the trick.” Liz advised me and I thought for a minute.

”My guitars are in the basement recording studio, maybe some practice is what the doctor ordered.” I responded before grinning sheepishly. ”No pun intended.”

“Trust me Chelsea, I’ve heard them all.” Liz responded with a chuckle as I stood up. “Are you sure about practicing though? It is pretty late?”

”The recording booth is mostly soundproof aside from the mics, but I won’t turn them on.” I responded as I made my way towards the bathroom door. ”Even then the basement goes pretty deep, doubt the neighbours could hear me down there if I did play loud.”

“I’ll take your word for it, now if you excuse me my break is over.” Liz nodded in response, and I grinned before opening the door. “Just remember that me, Chloe and Toni are only a call away if your mental health takes a downturn, we care about you.”

”I know, and thanks.” I thanked her before I hung up, left the bathroom and headed downstairs.

The basement recording studio, Chelsea and Sarah’s home, Chicago, Illinois
Thursday the 4th of November 2021, 4:00am

I know I call it a basement recording studio but it’s not like the booth and equipment take up all the space down here, just most of it.

I couldn’t tell you how long I spent down here trying to clear my head, but I can tell you that I spent some time practicing the riffs I wrote for Krawling Khaos’s debut album and the rest of the time playing some of my favourite Killswitch Engage riffs, ironically at the moment I was playing the title track from The End of Heartache, why is that ironic? Well……

”That sounded great Chelsea!” I nearly jumped out of my skin when I heard Sarah’s voice through the booth’s mic and looked up, Sarah was standing there still in her evening wear and with her hair messy, that is until she entered the booth. ”When I saw that you were gone, I got worried.”

”Sorry, I had a lot on my mind, needed something to get my mind off things and practice was the first thing that came to mind.” I admitted before I set my guitar aside and turned to face her. ”Most of it is concerning us, I’ve been spending the week since we got back from the cruise just lying to myself and my friends and family, because I’ve been scared!” I admitted as I felt tears of frustration well up in my eyes.

”Scared? Of what?” Sarah asked, and I let out a deep breath before turning away from her. ”Chelsea, please, I just want you to be happy!”

”Don’t you think I want that?! After all the crap I’ve been through, Justin’s death, my suicide attempt, everything to do with my parents and my ex, I just want a happy fucking ending!” I sobbed before I let out a deep breath. ”Sarah, the truth is, I love you! I’ve been meaning to spit it out since we had sex on the Sun Deck, but I was scared of being hurt again because I jumped into a relationship to quickly again!” I finally admitted as I glanced at the floor. ”I know it’s pretty much been an open secret for weeks but…….”

It was at that point that Sarah span me around and kissed me passionately on the lips, and once the surprise wore off I returned the favour. ”I wanted to wait until you were ready, I guess that happened a lot sooner than either of us thought.” Sarah added before we resumed making out. ”Trust me Chelsea, the feeling is mutual, you don’t have to worry about another situation like the one Ross ever again.”

”You have no fucking idea how much I needed to hear those words.” I responded before, well, we started getting frisky to put it mildly and if I had never put my jeans on, I’m sure my panties would’ve come flying off by now and I’d be laying on my back, I’ll leave the rest of that mental image to your imagination. ”So, do you want to finish this off down here or…….?”

”I think we’ve both waited long enough for this!!” Sarah responded and well, the rest I’m going to have to leave to your imagination.

What I can tell you is that the mics were still on and were picking up some very special music that was being made between me and Sarah.

Chelsea and Sarah’s home, Chicago, Illinois
Thursday the 4th of November 2021, 14:00pm

*promo time*

Sarah had hone off to the shops to get some stuff that we were low on, so I figured this was a good time to get my promo done.

”This week has been one hell of a mixed bag for me, it started off well enough with me picking up the win for y team on the Tara Fenix Charity Cruise but then I lost my match to Rev1’s World champion on Tuesday Night Sin so yeah, heading into PWE’s Annihilation event I am already wanting to win and get back in the winner’s circle but when you throw in the fact tact I’m still winless and that it’s for a shot at the PWE Impulse Championship I need to win!”

If only!

”On top of all that, I am entering the match against Mason, Tara, Beth and La Adalucera with a conflicted mind due to some stuff that’s going on in my personal life! I won’t go into detail but there’s obviously a chance that I’ll be entering this match without my focus being 100% there, so yeah, I’ve got that working against me as well, but I’ll be damned if I let any of that stop me from getting my first win in PWE!”

Or my opponents, starting with Will.

”William, I like to think that we get along pretty well, but this is every wrestler for itself and last I checked the Impulse Championship can’t be held by two people at the same time so what’s a girl to do? What else but beat one of the only friends that she has in this company, I at least know that you’ll give me one hell of a fight along the way but it’s like I said, I need this win!”

Next up is Beth and Andalucera.

”As for Acid Beth and La Andalucera, it’s pretty much the same story only I don’t know Beth all that well and Andalucera’s beef with me seemed to end when my ex’s time in the company ended! I don’t know either of you ladies well enough to really concentrate that much on either of you but neither of you are getting in the way of me and the win I need more than anyone else in this match!”

And last up is Tara.

”And no Tara, I haven’t forgotten about you, your motives in this match couldn’t be easier to spot, you want to match Damien’s success but to do that, you have to get past me and I’ve proven time and again that I won’t go down without one hell of a fight! I just hope that you have the fight I gave you and Damien in the Main Event of Victory II in the back of your mind when I enter this match and get that illusive win!”

It’s that simple.

”To be perfectly honest? I’m not even thinking about Zoey or the Impulse Championship right now because I’m the odd person out in this match, more specifically I’m the only wrestler in this match without a single win to her name in PWE and that is going to change on Sunday when I win this match! And neither Will, Beth, Andalucera or Tara can do anything tto get in my way!”

And with that I decided to wrap things up.

”Will, Beth, Andalucera, Tara, any of you are likely being viewed as the favourites to win the match and challenge Zoey but then there’s little old winless me, the one who anyone who hasn’t seen my PWE work is likely wondering why the hell I’m in the match, well, there’s an old saying, underdogs never lose and at this point I need this win more than anyone else in this match! I am the Nightmare Angel Chelsea Skye and even with the odds stacked against me like this, the Skyes the Limit once that bell rings!”

I went downstairs to get more practice done as the scene fades.